panic attack

not really. but i am starting to stress out more than a wee bit. i couldn't fall asleep last night, and then i woke up at about half past six this morning. i have procrastinated packing since we got back to the bay on tuesday night. now, i am starting to realize that maybe i should have done more with my time yesterday and the day before.

i still have to pack my suitcase, do my laundry, clear out the closets in the bedroom, finish cleaning the garage. i am still in the process of shredding papers from 8 years ago. don't even ask.

i think i am starting to show my stress in crankiness. i know i have been rather snappy with people. i don't really mean to be. i just need some time to be alone and figure things out. i can't get things done when i am worried about making everyone else happy. anyhoo, i will get over that.

yesterday i had a long lunch date with my friend lorena. haven't seen her before the wedding, so it was mighty nice to catch up with her. i am an idiot and forgot to get a picture of us together. darn it! i need to get better about taking out the camera from my purse and actually using it! lorena is doing well, and i wish her nothing but all the happiness in world. she deserves it. she is hard working and motivated, funny and kind. i love that!

last night we had really great bbq in morgan hill with gp. good times, of course.

time to get something done.